Derri52 aka Derry Paul Hughes why do things happen to you? Why the darkness of mental health problems? So many breakdowns without complete cure, Just when we were on the brink of good times and the peace of mind so needed! Once more my wait begins, this time in a flat in Swindon, Wiltshire, which is now our home so lovingly decorated and furnished by you. The 10 months since your last breakdown have been so happy but you had to work too hard, I know you did it for us, but by doing so you tipped into the darkness again. You bought me so much, the gifts, the art equipment, so many clothes, you really spoilt me, but if I had it to do again I would rather not have it and have you well.