Derry Hughes, At last you shared your dark secret, perhaps now you will heal.
No one needs to walk alone in the darkness, step into the light - it waits.

Time drags ...... I get so cross at how I am not informed about your treatment, I know it is because we are not married, you say that we will be married soon so next time it will be different, I still hope there will not be a next time.

Dec 4 2013 After so long you were allowed to visit, I could see you were not fully recovered but a lot better, so nice to have some time together and ease the pressure of being apart, this is the first step to your coming home which is wonderful. I know that mental illness will always be a risk, that at times you may  again do things completely out of character as you have done, somehow I have to learn the signs and know what to do.

Christmas day 2013, Derry Paul Hughes is still not home, now the medications seem to be alright the man-flu becomes a chest infection which worsens to Pleural empyema! Now it is mega doses of anti-biotics and oxygen therapy, out of four christmas days as a couple we have only been together on christmas day once! Fate keeps repeating itself over and over, what are the odds of that?

Derri52 aka Derry Paul Hughes why do things happen to you? Why the darkness of mental health problems? So many breakdowns without complete cure, Just when we were on the brink of good times and the peace of mind so needed! Once more my wait begins, this time in a flat in Swindon, Wiltshire, which is now our home so lovingly decorated and furnished by you. The 10 months since your last breakdown have been so happy but you had to work too hard, I know you did it for us, but by doing so you tipped into the darkness again. You bought me so much, the gifts, the art equipment, so many clothes, you really spoilt me, but if I had it to do again I would rather not have it and have you well.